The acutal process of receiving chemo is in an odd-way somewhat spa like for me. A lovely welcome from the ladies at the front, proper snacks.. beverages. Heck, they even make accessing my port quick, easy, and painless. The ladies that I met last week were gems, pure and simple. I did chuckle a bit, as they kind of sit in cliques :) I'm the newbie, so I floated like a social butterfly on my different days, choosing a seat in a new location daily. Insurance was still being stinky with the Avastin, so I did NOT receive it. Stupid paper pushers. I'm on tap for next treatment, so...
I did not stay in Nashville, as John was available to drive me, and the kiddoes even came with us on Wednesday, so they could see where I go. By Thursday, I was spent. CRASH! BANG! POW! she's done! My sister Pam calls it the Sleeping Beauty effect... wowza! I think sudden onset of narcolepsy would apply :). So, I've been napping on and off since arriving home last Thursday. That, with a headache that kicked in on Tuesday from the high fluid push, and oy vey! By Friday I had a physically detached feeling, kind of like my upper torso was floating separately from the rest of my body. Now, I knew that the chemo would nail me Days 3-10, but by yesterday, Sunday, I was feeling fairly alive. Went to church, fed my chemo cravings of Doritos and Chinese Food, visited with my girlies Courtney and Staci.... I was feeling fair!
And then came Monday.
Nausea? too polite of a word. 3 anti nausea prescriptions, one 41 mommy, and one nasty, violent, evil, evil, yucky chemo day. My question? Is today the end? No other choice than to find out!
With all the yucky aside, I'll take the chemo, and all the funky, gunky, junk it entails, as it means something very important to me: life.
Hair loss "should" be less loss more thinning, we shall see.
If my counts are up this Friday, I'm to head back to work for 2 weeks next week, before my next round. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. Nervous to see if I can physically make it a whole day without napping, but so excited to see my friends and the hundreds of kiddoes I love bundles! Nervous to expose myself to the germ-pool that exists in an elementary school, but excited to teach again!
xo
~Suzanne
